April 22, 2010
It was the first time Jonas didn't come with me to the appointment. Hayley was sick and had to stay home from school, so he stayed home with the girls and I went on to my appointment. It all began fairly routine, got to see Jack on the ultrasound and his little profile. The sonographer moved on to the Doppler testing part. They usually get three readings and average them out. The sonographer got the first two and was about to get the third, but noticed I was a getting flushed. I thought I was going to faint. Turns out laying flat on my back is a no-no for the rest of the ultrasounds since the baby blocks a major artery, causing lack of blood flow to my heart and brain. It was no fun. I felt much better after I rolled onto my side and he was able to finish the scans.
I noticed the numbers that he was getting were much higher than the numbers in the previous weeks' scans. And then I knew something was up when the sonographer asked me to stay in the room. After being sent to the waiting room, I was then sent to the conference room to wait for the doctor. That was all routine, but then a nurse came in to check my blood pressure and weigh me. I wasn't sure what to think at that moment and wanted to call Jonas, but I really had nothing to tell him since I still wasn't sure what was going on.
Finally, the doctor came in and he confirmed my suspicions that the blood flow has increased, but it was still in the safe range. He was concerned because it was such a significant change from my previous tests. He asked about the baby's movements, which have been good. He wanted to send me in for a non-stress test to test the baby's movements that day. I would also need to come back twice a week now for non-stress tests and again in ten days for another Doppler. He wasn't sure how often he wanted to do those until he is able to see the results from the next Doppler. I was in shock and really didn't know what to think. Everything had been so stable before and it all changed in that instant.
My doctor then sent me for my NST (non-stress test). I had to go to triage because they were booked at the MFM Clinic. Luckily there was no one at triage, so I was admitted right away. I got a quick minute to call Jonas and let him know what was going on. Jonas was a little stressed, but I told him I would call as soon as my NST was over. Basically a NST monitors the baby's heart rate and any contractions you may have. The same belts and monitors women wear at a hospital while in labor. During an NST they want the baby's heart rate to rise 15 BPM when the baby moves for at least 15 seconds. This test takes about 30 minutes.
Everything looked good and I was sent home with a list of all my upcoming NST appointments. I also have to be very aware of the baby's movements. The most important being from when I wake up to lunch time. If there are less than 10 kicks, then I have to call into my OB and go in for an NST. This change has been difficult, to say the least. I've gone from counting down my weeks by the remaining appointments, to worrying over how much Jack is moving and my twice-weekly NST tests.
I am trying not to stress out over all of this, but that's proving to be nearly impossible. I am thankful that this all didn't happen earlier in the pregnancy, but now I am entirely uncertain of making it until June. I try to keep busy with Hayley's activities and school, but I can't help but worry about everything with the baby. I just don't know how to not stress out over all of this. After two routine pregnancies, this is an entirely new and frightening reality. I just pray for a healthy baby and hopefully making it until June to meet him.
April 17, 2010
My last appointment with my OB went great as well. He spoke with my doctor at the MFM Clinic and agreed that it is unlikely we will have any problems with the antibodies. It was really good news to hear. I am still a little weary, since I have a little less than two months to go, but at the same time I am really relieved. So was Jonas! I also passed my glucose test, but failed the hemocrit (red blood cell) count. So, yeah for iron supplements. I've also gained a little more weight, putting my grand total to 17+ pounds. I feel bigger this time around, I wonder if he will be much bigger than his sisters were. Hayley only weighed 5lbs. 15.5oz and Ryan was 6lbs. 8oz.
So until Jack gets here, I am at one of my doctors every week! Geeze, but it's also a good way to count down my time left. We've gotten the nursery together and are finishing up getting those last few blue things we need. It feels like we've started over after so much pink! It's also a lot of fun and I can't wait to see how much things are going to change. I'm also a little terrified, but am welcoming the changes coming to our life.
This year, we went during the week. The weekends are insane there and it's hard to get good pictures. We always visit Tulip Town because it's bigger and has more of a variety. We didn't get a chance to go last year, so I was excited to see what Ryan would think since that last time we went she was a baby. She had fun running around and looking inside the flowers for bugs. Although she didn't like to get her hands dirty and made us wipe them off every time she touched the dirt. Hayley also had fun running around and didn't mind getting dirty at all. I had fun taking pictures, although it is difficult to get down low enough for the shots I was trying to get. Being nearly eight months pregnant made photographing our day interesting, but I managed.
It was a fun day, the weather was nice. Not too hot and it wasn't raining. Well, it did rain, but the rain didn't start falling until about ten minutes after we left. Yeah for Tulips!
April 9, 2010
Starting a couple of months or so ago, marked the beginning of many, many sentences coming from Hayley's mouth beginning with the title of this blog entry. I don't know where it started, but it just did one day and hasn't stopped since. Most of the time it's funny; sometimes it's a little irritating, but I just have to remind myself she is five and making sense of her world and the things she can not do. So here are some examples of a finished sentence.
When I'm a grown-up:
- I can touch all the glass bottles at the grocery store.
- I don't have to listen to you.
- I can put a timer on my kids to eat their dinner.
- I can do whatever I want.
- I will be the boss.
- I can tell my kids what to do.
- I can play outside after it gets dark, for a little while.
- I will come visit you because I'm moving to Mississippi.
- I can watch my shows whenever I want.
There are more, but that's all I can think of at the moment. If she only knew how easy she has it now and that being a grown-up isn't always all it's cracked up to be. Love you Hayley-bug.
April 6, 2010
We had a fairly low key Easter this year. The Saturday before Easter was actually a lot busier for us. We took the girls to a Egg Hunt at the local park. They got to visit with the Easter Bunny and play games. We then ran to Bellevue for cupcakes. If you don't know, I have an obsession with cupcakes, especially Trophy Cupcakes. (http://www.trophycupcake.com/) For Easter, they have Hi-hat cupcakes; a chocolate cupcake with marshmallow meringue frosting dipped in chocolate. It was so good and you can only get them the day before Easter. The girls really enjoyed theirs as well. Then we ran to the mall to have lunch at Panera since I was craving their food. Finally, it was time to go home and dye some eggs, after a quick stop at Walmart. A quick stop was wishful thinking, we didn't need much, but it took almost half an hour to get through the express line. We finally got home to have dinner, eat our delicious cupcakes and dye the Easter Eggs. Then it was time for bed for my excited girls, who didn't fall asleep for over an hour after being put to bed! They couldn't stop talking about the Easter Bunny and what they were going to get in their baskets.
Finally, they were out and the Easter Bunny was able to fill their baskets. Hayley awoke early, 6:30am! She was disappointed she had to wait for Ryan to wake up. Finally, Ryan awoke and down the stairs they went. Hayley received a new game for her DS and Ryan received a new Petshop set. And of course, they both got some candy. Easter isn't Easter without some Peeps! We had an early dinner with friends and then came back home to relax and get ready for the week. Easter was the end of Spring Break and Hayley had to be back at school the next morning. In all, it was a fun weekend and a great ending to Spring Break.